Our Little Miracle…

 

Seven months of wild waves with this man of my dreams keeping my head above water. I’ve always dreamed of being a mother, but never knew if I could be. I experienced multiple pelvic and internal injuries after being hit by a car at 16 with ongoing pain and limitations, and was warned of what might never come to be. I’ve always wanted to adopt (as my incredible mum was) and my partner and I had been talking about it again just before this unexpected miracle happened.
With my personal history and high value of privacy I hope everyone can understand that I would not have shared this online if I didn’t feel the need to talk about the highs and lows that so many experience with challenging pregnancies. I have been struggling with antenatal depression and hope that speaking out might just help heal myself, and someone else too.
At our 20 week scan they noticed the lack of amniotic fluid that I had unknowingly been leaking due to my old bladder injury and was diagnosed with PPROM (broken waters). With pre-labour symptoms and anticipating a very, very early arrival I was admitted to hospital in Sydney on bed rest once viable at 24 weeks. I don’t know the words to describe how hopeless I felt… not being able to control my own body, provide for my baby or see hope that we would make it through. Despite my partner being a rock of support and positivity, I have found these last few months to be some of the loneliest of my life.
Just days ago we experienced our first true moment of excitement and relief that things will be okay; that we have a little warrior who is beating all of the odds. I have been allowed home for the first time since late last year and the cloud of anxiety is slowly lifting. Thank you to the doctors, midwives and hospitals who have gone above and beyond for us, including all of the women I met while sharing hospital rooms learning about each other’s journeys. We are so grateful to have come this far and be in this position that so many can only dream to reach. We aren’t in the complete clear but know that nothing ever really is. For now we are going to lay low and enjoy every extra week of waiting to meet our miracle…

 

  • I am so excited for you guys what a miracle! Take care dear, we’re all so happy for you that you’re in for the final stretch! Can’t wait to meet your miracle!! Liefs, Yara

  • loradow

    Jessica – I’ve read your blog for years, enjoying seeing new cities and countries through your eyes. Over time, I realized that while you are beautiful on the outside, you are so much more than that on the inside. I wondered why I hadn’t seen a post for a while and hoped that your life was good. To read this, and to have an idea of how difficult these past few months have been, my heart aches for you and your partner. But, once again, your wise-beyond-your-years soul comes through in your words. You will be a fantastic mother to whatever children come into your life, however they get there, including the little warrior inside of you. Be well, and all my best to you and yours.

  • I’m sure everything will be fine now because you’re one of the kindest people ever & for those that don’t know you, it shows through your blog & your instagram posts & while we’ll never know the pain of your experience, you’re one of the most deserving people ever. Even after your accident, you’ve been able to conceive & I really can’t see anyone more deserving of this miracle. I hope you get your needed rest & that everything goes smoothly from here on out. Best wishes x

  • First of all, a massive congratulations to yourself and your man Jess! Secondly – I take my hat off to you for being so brutally honest about everything that is happening. We need more people like you in the world, unafraid to share even when things aren’t roses and sunshine. All the best for your pregnancy lady!

  • Carrie Colbert

    Best wishes and lots of positive thoughts for you. Xo

    Carrie

    http://www.wearwherewell.com

  • Arabella

    Wow that an amazing miracle, best of luck over the next few weeks!

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  • What a miracle! I’m wishing the both of you all the very best!
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  • What a miracle Jess! I’m so cheerful for you guys, and I couldn’t be happier for your miracle to be alive, healthy and fighting as a little warrior, because damn, you deserved it so much! Best wishes, and even tho you prefer to keep your privacy, somehow it heals a bit more to be able to share and talk about it xxx

  • This is beautiful and truly a miracle.
    Wishing you all the luck in the world.

    Petite Side of Style

  • This is the best news!! So so happy for you and wish you all the luck and happiness x

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  • stopthedot

    I was wondering why you hadn’t posted anything for such a long time. Now I see – all the best for your little family and I cross my fingers for you! 🙂

  • Firstly congratulations on your little miracle and I sending over positive vibes. It’s amazing what our bodies as women are capable of. Wishing lots of stress free days ahead so that you are in the best possible state to welcome your little warrior. All the best x.

  • Stamina

    Thank you for sharing, it’s so nice to know that I’m not the only person who feels this way during pregnancy. In a few weeks you will be a wonderfull mother to a very strong little baby! Take care xx

  • Maria

    Congratulations on the little one! I hope the pregnancy goes without further complications, wishing you all the luck in the world! x

    The Chic Pursuit

  • uaaaaaaaaau, I am so happy for you, u see sometimes miracles happen

  • Nicole

    So cute! wonderful!!

    xx Nicole – http://www.nicolemai.com

  • Annie

    Congratulation!!! That’s wonderful news, hopes the reset of the pregnancy goes well!

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  • Thinking of you beautiful! Congrats and you and your beautiful family CAN make it through this! <3

  • Carina Ž

    Congratulation! I`m so happy for You!

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  • Jessicaaaa!!! What incredible news! As a devout reader for years and fellow mama-to-be (our first little one is due in July), I just can’t help but feel so much joy for you and your SO – as if you’re one of my dearest friends. I’m so sorry you’ve had a rough go of it, love! Praying for smooth sailing from hear on out!

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  • SO exciting <3 I am so sorry to hear about the hard time though 🙁 You are in my prayers that everything will go smoothly and your baby shall be healthy <3

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  • mariel

    Congratulations Jessica, what a great and lovely miracle, you’re so strong and keep being strong as it will be so rewarding when she comes <3

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  • The Gold Lipstick

    Absolutely love it!!

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  • Congratulations to both of you! I am so excited for you, and will be thinking of you and sending love your way throughout. I hate to think of you going through more of these challenges again. You are such a strong inspiration. Enjoy each week. xx Jenelle

  • Alex Ramirez

    I wonder what it seemed you were a bit absent. Now knowing this wonderful news, I can’t help to be happy for you. Congratulations!! Hope all is well, and just wish you and you’re little bundle of joy a safe journey. Hope to hear from you with even better news.

  • This is such fabulous news. Your tough pregnancy will all be worth it when you meet your little miracle!!
    Hugs Adele xoxo

  • Omg, this is such a wonderful story. I’m very sorry that your pregnancy is not going as easy as one could hope, but I really hope that from now onwards it will be as easy and relaxed as possible. I wish all three of you best of luck.

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  • Pinay Skattebasse

    Congratulations! Hope everything will be fine. 🙂 Prayers for you and your baby.

  • judy.napier@mail.ru

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  • Fabiana Aguilar Fernandez

    Be happy and keep the positivity up!!! life is a blessing… and a baby even more!!

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  • Mes Voyages à Paris

    Ohh such a beautiful photo dear!!! Really like the post Jessica!

    xx

    Mónica Sors

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  • IPIHIPPIE

    Hey, Jessica. I’ve been ur reader since day one and knowing that you and your baby are now in better condition is soooo muuuuch relief! Good luck with everything, Jessica. Can’t wait to see the little miracle <3

    IPIHIPPIE

  • So glad things are improving and wishing you and your baby health and joy.

  • Shelsx

    Thank you for sharing with us…Can’t wait to hear more great news from you soon <3

  • Leanne

    Absolutely wonderful news, Jessica. Congratulations on this next chapter in this journey we call life.

    Arum Lilea

  • Wishing you the best for the weeks you two have left to meet your warrior, your miracle; thanks for sharing your struggles in such an honest, open and raw way.
    Looking forward to your next update! Big hugs your way!

    xXx

  • Anastacia Glezakou

    Congratulations, Jessica!!!

    Such a great news! As a new mum myself, I am so happy for you! Wishing you to have a full term pregnancy and easy labor! You will be a wonderful mother!!!

  • Anna

    Congratulation!!!

  • Awwww <3

  • Jennifer Wilson

    I am so incredibly happy for you. Sending tons of positive thoughts and prayers your way for a safe and healthy pregnancy and delivery. xoxo

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  • Lucie Colomb

    WOW thats such an amazing article !! And congratulation =))

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  • Oh my goodness, thank you SO MUCH for sharing, I have been wondering what was going on and I am so glad to hear things are on the ups! Can not wait to meet your warrior soon!

    xx Kelly
    Sparkles and Shoes

  • Whitney V

    Awwww Jess I’m so happy for you guys! I have been an avid reader and folowers of yours for such a long time that reading about this makes me feel so happy, as I feel like I know you! I can’t imagine how hard it’s been for you but I aplaude you sharing it here because I’m certain it will help and give courage to many women out there. Wish you guys the best, lots of luck and look forward to meeting your little miracle too! x

    Love from Costa Rica,
    Whit

    http://www.whitneyswonderland.com

  • Eve

    I’ve followed you follow your heart years, and I’m so happy for you! That’s amazing news.

    Eve x

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  • Raindrops of Sapphire

    Writing about it definitely helps heal. I kept my health issues and pains to myself for many years, but I came out about them on my blog a while back and the support I’ve received from everyone has been incredible, just like you’re getting now. So I know it’s private and it’s hard to talk about things like that, but we are all here for you, your own support group. I’m so happy to hear you’re doing ok and baby is hanging in there, you’re going to be an incredible mum! It’s always refreshing to see other people you look up to going through tough times. It’s all too often that others are portrayed as this perfect ideal and all this time you’d struggled and had battles to deal with on an monumental scale. Honesty really is freeing and helpful to everyone, as well as yourself, so anytime you need to let it out, we’re here for you. Wishing you both and the baby all the happiness xx.

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  • Miss Pippi

    I am so happy for your miracle. I am sure everything will be fine. XX, Pippi

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  • renee

    ooooohhh!!! que bonito!!! Enhorabuena!!! Te deseo mucha suerte!!! Y mucha felicidad!! Se positiva, seguro que todo irá bien!!! Ya lo verás… !!

    el blog de renée

  • Incredible news! Congratulations! Sending all my love and prayers! Xx, Lucinda

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  • Beautiful! love your new posts on instagram

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  • s.

    absolutely moving. sending you love from far away 🙂

  • Zorica

    Congrats on these amazing news… You are the cutest and prettiest mom to be…
    xx
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  • Reading about this makes me feel so happy!
    Congratulation!!! That’s wonderful news!!!
    Kiss

  • Magda Oltean

    Incredible news! Congratulations to you both! And Happy Women’s day!
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  • 尤莉謹

    Congratulations!!!
    good luck for everything and all the best <3 <3

    xxx, Yolanda
    http://yolllandaaa.blogspot.tw/

  • Boo Hoo
  • Seriously wishing you the best – you deserve it! It’s understandable that you’d want privacy 🙂 We’re all rooting for you and your little family! <3
    Vanessa

  • Amelie

    I hope you have a everything from now on remains wonderful!! I’ll be here rooting for you 🙂

    AVOCADO THEORY

  • Kay Nguyen

    First time here and I love your blog! Congratulation!

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  • Vanessa

    Jessica, I am so happy for you. Being a mum is the best thing that ever happened to me. I am sure you will feel the same and hope everything will be going well from now on.
    Love to you from London,
    Vanessa

  • liliana

    congratulations~! a baby is one of the greatest blessings in our lives~! wish you the best!

  • I am a new reader to your blog and just wanted to wish you all the best with your journey. No doubt it’s going to be tough, however nothing worth working towards in life is ever easy. Congratulations on your achievements thus far and stay strong

    Adrianna xx
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  • robert

    Jessica i am glad for you! good news to hear!
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  • Love your posts 🙂 Can’t wait for new photos

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  • Cristina

    Love the pics!!

    PLEASE COME TO VISIT MY BLOG!! WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY STYLE?

    Kisses

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  • I hope everything is going well. Being a mum is so challenging but very rewarding at the same time. Take care and look after yourself and you little one.

  • Congratulations Jessica! I can’t wait to hear about your little girl <3

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  • Tiffany Zimmy

    great post! Congrats on this miracle 🙂
    love, Tiffany Lea
    https://zimmylifestyle.com

  • Nhien An

    I know it’s late, but still congrats on you two <3

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    • Thành An

      Congrats!

  • Nice post! Enjoy your day 😉

    Greets
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